Breathe, just breathe. There’s nothing more you can do. You can’t make him want you or love you anymore than you can stop loving him yourself. You tried, you put yourself out there.
Legs feel week, the ground looks so inviting. What if I just disappear...
What, you want the ground to open up and swallow you whole. You really think that will make him miss you, do you really think if you weren’t here anymore that he’d even notice.
That feeling swelling in your chest is all you’ll ever have.
It's all that you deserve.
What a waste. You couldn’t even get him to feel the tiniest bit of affection for you.
THUD, thud, THUD. Beating rhythm forces it's way through my hollow chest. Sound dies away and the emptiness is filled with a high pitch static whine. Thud, thud, thud. The beating slows to a near stop. This unimaginable pain seems to arrive while simultaneously continue to exist as it's always been there. Did I really never notice this pain before. Has it always been here or is it just my raw nerves being severed.
Don’t feel. Close your eyes.
What a pathetic fool!
Just breathe.
Useless waste of space.
Just, survive this. You can do this!
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